Contentment
Seeing my life in a different way
I was watching “Mrs Bovary” the movie. And I was watching it real close for the second time.
I did not understand the first time why she had to kill herself. I did not understand the reason.
If you don’t know the book by Gustave Flaubert or the movie with the same name, it is about a young country doctor’s wife that was very discontent with her life. She get into great debts and cheats on her husband. And she doesn’t find a solution for her problems in the end then to take her own life.
I think now that she had a lot of discontent for a quite country life. And she was bored and she cheated on her husband with different men trying to get the life that she thought she deserved.
The movie made me think about my life. I have a quite boring life in the 8th largest city from Romania. I am retired and I don’t have money to travel in my retirement. My city have to do for the rest of my life. I have a boyfriend but it doesn’t matter if I marry him or not, because as we are childfree by choice, our life won’t change. I have one good friend and some other ones, but when you get old you lose them one by one to death.
My point for this post is that one has to be content with what it has. As Madam Bovary was bored, she only had to find an occupation of her time, a hobby. One that could enjoy without doing anything wrong. And as I said above taking a good look at my life, I could be discontent with it or to revolt against it. But I find it very freeing. This is my life and I have a lot of time and liberty to do what I want. I already travelled in my 30s on 3 continents and I find traveling now very stressful with everything that is going now in the world.
My boyfriend and I don’t live in together. We both have each own flat. We meet, we enjoy our time together and then we go back to our routines. In this way we always have what to talk about it when we meet and we are glad to see each other again.
My boredom has to do with the lack of productivity from my life. I have a lot of hobbies as you well know but I don’t make any money of them. I am a bit frustrated with that. But that means that my money need to come from something else.
I think contentment comes first before gratitude. Seeing your life with contentment and ease, makes a lot of difference and when you don’t compare it with other people.
My life is everything I wanted a year ago and 5 years ago. I wish for you my reader to find contentment for you life, too. It is the first step on the right track.
See you in my next post!